Sunday, November 25, 2012

the beginning

Living freely, what does that mean to you? This concept just presented itself to me this past year..more of an "aha" moment..I guess I never thought about it before... living freely, following my heart and truly enjoying this life's journey.

I was caught in the rat race. A spirit trapped in this human body, doing what society wanted me to do or so I thought..I was brought up to love, respect others and work hard. And so I did.
I was told life is not easy, a penny saved is a penny earned and so forth. And so I believed.
Hmmm..I thought to myself, OK..I am in my late 30's..I have dealt with things like being a single mom, death of my mom and brother, ups and downs of a marriage, challenges that 4 completely different children present and so forth.
All well maintaining a job to assist in supporting my family. I felt as if I was running in circles. Work mentally, spiritually and physically exhausted me as a nurse in a nursing home..working short staffed, attempting to be supportive of families, loving to the dying and caring to the confused..following "corporate" guidelines that frustrated me. Giving sometimes 50 pills to elderly, that #1 have no idea what these pills are for and #2 their bodies cant handle them..and then to top it off they were fed crap for food.
While working full time, I cooked dinner most nights, cleaned the house on my days off, played taxi driver for soccer, dance lessons and other activities. Working this last position was the icing on the cake for me, it made me think about all my past jobs..disgusted in how "corporate" business is..the greed, the power..all at another poor souls expense..This is health care..I chose this path as I wanted to love and respect others and care for them. I wanted to make a difference.
But what happened is, that due to policies and procedures and greedy employers or maybe it does really stem from the government...I was completely burnt out.(those in health care..I am sure can relate) I gave so much of ME at work I had nothing left for home. I was too tired..on all levels..to "deal" with my family. I didn't want to be THAT mom. The crunchy, mean, angry mom who was too tired to play with her kids. But that's who I became and I hated it.I didn't like me..
In April of this year, Enough was enough, I wanted ME back. Who am I, what do I really want out of this life? What do I want to teach my children?
 I sought out like minded spiritual friends, whom supported me.  So I quit my job, after consulting my husband of course. I prayed and meditated for guidance. I then waited..and realized
I know I am a healer, I am here to help others.
I found an online program that was perfect. I would study to become a holistic health coach. I would learn about how nutrition and primary foods can enhance your life. How awesome, food can change my life..I learned that obesity, diabetes and heart disease.. can be prevented, maybe even reversed with diet and lifestyle changes. I learned that when your primary foods are in balance-career, relationships, spirituality and physical activity-your health and life will be in balance.
I will work for myself. I will make a difference in the world and help others, one person at a time! I will be available for my children.I am pursuing this career I am so passionate about that it intertwines with my personal life creating a life I love to live,one full of joy, a life I created,
And so life continues... I can be me, I am a happy, loving child of the universe creating balance. Showing my children, that following their dreams is how they can live freely. Not to settle for unhappiness, only you can change your thought pattern, belief system and your life! I will NOT tell them life is hard, I will SHOW them anything is possible through self motivation, determination and success with love. Always remembering the laws of the universe. What you give, you will receive.
I will spread love, peace and harmony as a ripple effect through the world.  Life is a journey of lessons learned and I am so grateful to be provided this path and live freely.
namaste
beth

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